Tonight I Understood

[Pandie]

For years I drove myself crazy
Wondering what I'd done wrong
To make you change your mind and leave
When I thought this was where you belong.

I racked my mind and still I found
Not a thing that just stood out
We got along so perfectly
Never once did we find the need to shout.

But I know that I did something
Or was it something I didn't do
For one day just out of the blue
You said that we were through.

I remember standing there nodding
I didn't yell, or ask you why
I made it seem like I didn't care
Maybe I should have let you see me cry.

Maybe if I loved a little more
Or if I had just stop being so afraid
Perhaps I could have gave more to you
Maybe then you would have stayed.

These little teasing notions
Have been tearing down my pride
The constant wonder of what went wrong
Was killing me inside.

But then this evening when I was done
Writing about all this stuff
A light dawned on me and I understood
I just was never good enough...