Post by Pandie on Jul 15, 2010 19:05:12 GMT -5
I thought of you this evening
In the darkness of my home
No matter what I tried to do
My mind just seemed to roam.
The memories of what we used to do
Of how we used to be
Were buried deep within myself
But tonight came flooding back to me.
I left you there, in the past
Couldn't do it anymore
The thing's you said, the way you were
Had me running out the door.
We couldn't go a day without
Fighting about stupid things
My happiness was makebelieve
Didn't care what the future with you brings.
You never loved one thing about me
Only what I offered to you
It took me half a lifetime to understand
Your promises were untrue.
A heart is made for treasuring
It's not a doormat for your shoes
Love is suppose to bring sunshine
But my world was colored in blues.
I never cheated, never tried
Built my world around you
Gave you all I ever had
But I didn't know you knew.
That's why you stayed so long
With me, you didn't have to try
The only challenge in your day
Was to turn your head in time to miss me cry.
We landed on different pages
Two different paths of life
Together we couldnt' make it work
Both bringing pain and strife.
So when I finally listened
I understood what you said
You admitted you were using me
And so, that very evening I fled.
It's clear we were not meant to be
Sometimes we can't see the clue
But why, if thing's were so bad
Do I find myself thinking of you?
It's not because I miss your love
For you can't miss what wasn't there
I don't long to win you back
You never did seem to care.
I don't wish thing's were a different way
You can't change who you really are
I wouldn't want to pretend to be blind
Avoidance won't get you very far.
I think perhaps you cross my mind
Because of the one thing I don't have
And that's the comforting awareness
Of someone there through good and bad.
I don't have a body next to me
When I crawl in bed at night
Or the comfort of company
When I awake from a fright.
I'm left with a safer heart
But still truely alone
Living in a quiet box
I can't even call a home.
I think that's what we all miss the most
It's not the love that we have lost
But knowledge that we're on our own
And we wonder if it's all worth the cost.
Some day's it seems unbearable
Like we're stuck at the side of a stream
But it only takes a moment's reflection
To realize we're not as alone as we seem...
In the darkness of my home
No matter what I tried to do
My mind just seemed to roam.
The memories of what we used to do
Of how we used to be
Were buried deep within myself
But tonight came flooding back to me.
I left you there, in the past
Couldn't do it anymore
The thing's you said, the way you were
Had me running out the door.
We couldn't go a day without
Fighting about stupid things
My happiness was makebelieve
Didn't care what the future with you brings.
You never loved one thing about me
Only what I offered to you
It took me half a lifetime to understand
Your promises were untrue.
A heart is made for treasuring
It's not a doormat for your shoes
Love is suppose to bring sunshine
But my world was colored in blues.
I never cheated, never tried
Built my world around you
Gave you all I ever had
But I didn't know you knew.
That's why you stayed so long
With me, you didn't have to try
The only challenge in your day
Was to turn your head in time to miss me cry.
We landed on different pages
Two different paths of life
Together we couldnt' make it work
Both bringing pain and strife.
So when I finally listened
I understood what you said
You admitted you were using me
And so, that very evening I fled.
It's clear we were not meant to be
Sometimes we can't see the clue
But why, if thing's were so bad
Do I find myself thinking of you?
It's not because I miss your love
For you can't miss what wasn't there
I don't long to win you back
You never did seem to care.
I don't wish thing's were a different way
You can't change who you really are
I wouldn't want to pretend to be blind
Avoidance won't get you very far.
I think perhaps you cross my mind
Because of the one thing I don't have
And that's the comforting awareness
Of someone there through good and bad.
I don't have a body next to me
When I crawl in bed at night
Or the comfort of company
When I awake from a fright.
I'm left with a safer heart
But still truely alone
Living in a quiet box
I can't even call a home.
I think that's what we all miss the most
It's not the love that we have lost
But knowledge that we're on our own
And we wonder if it's all worth the cost.
Some day's it seems unbearable
Like we're stuck at the side of a stream
But it only takes a moment's reflection
To realize we're not as alone as we seem...
